Lori has done such a great job with this blog. I have mentioned to her a few times that I would write it occasionally but have yet to follow through. Tonight is the night. I’m not near the writer Lori is, but here goes:
First of all, a quick update on today: Neil’s walking continues to improve as does his ability to get up out of his chair or bed. He’s still working hard to get beyond the whispering of some words and is so earnest in his efforts in all that he attempts. It’s very humbling to be by his side. I know he feels our unwavering support and love.
Neil loves having sleepovers so I am spending tonight in his room. They have a chair in each room here that pulls out to make a bed and Kessler doesn’t mind if a family member stays over once in a while. We have done it a few times since we have been here.
I want to write directly to Neil tonight.
Your accident was exactly seven weeks ago today. Not a day (hour) has gone by where I don’t wish we could go back and re-write the script. I wake up every night in the middle of the night and hope it was just a bad dream only to be slapped hard with a dose of reality.
I would like with all my heart to tell you why this happened Neil. I pray that one day it will make a little more sense to all of us.
I am so proud of you Neil and feel so blessed to be your dad. School comes easy to some but you had to really work at it and your effort was paid off with getting accepted to BYU-ID. You never speak badly of others, your kind heart is manifest in so many ways, and you always forgive others so quickly. You have grown into being such a fine young man.
I would trade places with you right now if I could but as that is not possible the best I can do is to be by your side and that is what I (we) will do without fail. Your mom and I will be here for you every step of the way. We have a tough journey ahead but the key word Neil is “we”—together. That’s what being a family is all about and is something you never need to worry about.
I love you Neil. I feel so blessed to be able to be your Dad. You are a wonderful son.